Hi again, @Maracujá. I've been thinking about your post and I thought I'd write again. I hope this is useful and not overstepping. I would have sent a PM, but this might help someone else. Spoiler If you're putting your life on hold because you don't know whether or not you'll ever be married, you're not really living the life God wants for you. Jesus said that He came that we might have abundant life (John 10:10). It doesn't matter whether we're unmarried or married, life in Christ should be abundant and full of Him and His love. Please pray about the things you might be holding yourself back from doing, if there are any. In my opinion, too many people are trying to prepare for an earthly marriage to an imperfect mate when it is ultimately God's will that we prepare for our eternal marriage with our perfect Lord (2 Peter 3:11-12). The Lord wants us to be like Jesus. He has promised that if we seek His Kingdom and righteousness first, all other things will be added (Matthew 6:31-34, Luke 12:29-32). If we abide in Him, and let His word abide in us, the rest will follow (John 15:1-12). We're on the same page. For me simplicity and peace go well together. Spoiler When Christ died on the cross, we who have accepted His sacrifice died with Him (Galatians 2:20-21). The more we allow Christ to live His life through us, the more peace our lives will have. He is the Prince of Peace. As we become more like Christ, allowing Him to live through us, we will automatically become better employees, children, siblings, parents, spouses, citizens, etc, because He is living through us. There is no fruit of the Spirit that will not improve our relationships in this life (Galatians 5:22-23). Combine that with The Spirit's discernment, and God's got us covered. Growing in our relationship with God is the best way to prepare for marriage. Spoiler Romans 12:1-2 says that if you allow God's Word to renew your mind, you will be able to know what is God's will and John 8:31-32 says that if we continue in Christ's word, we will know the truth. Basically, knowing and believing God's Word improves our discernment. It helps to guard your heart, too (Proverbs 4:23). Please ask the Lord for the ability to receive His love, and the grace to forgive yourself for past mistakes and sins. He has forgiven you for Jesus's sake - forgive yourself. Ask God for the grace to stop looking back, and to walk with Him into the glorious future He has prepared for you. Break every association you have made (knowingly or not) with the spirit of rejection and fear, and receive His acceptance, boldness and peace. Sorry for the sermon, I just hate to see people (usually women) putting their lives on hold because they don't have a man. As Christians, we have the best man ever! He loves you more than you know. God bless you.